I am not even looking forward to Thanksgiving because my appointment is the day before it, so I just want school to go by slowly so I don't have to go home for it. There is something seriously wrong with that. I mean, most people are a little anxious about the dentist, but I think I take it to a whole new level.
Please pray for me. I am having trouble even focusing on my school stuff because I am so worked up about it.
I know where it comes from, but there is really nothing I can figure out to lessen this anxiety I have been dealing with for years.
As a child, I never feared doctors. I didn't care what they did. I think it's because I was so accustomed to them. I had bad asthma and allergies, so I went to the doctor all the time. Then in eighth grade, I got diagnosed with scoliosis and had to have a root canal after a complication from having braces. It all came in such a whirlwind, and I still consider that to be one of the darkest times of my life.
Ever since then, I have been literally terrified of doctors. I cannot overcome the fear that impedes me from seeking help if ever a problem is to arise. You'd think that after so many years of therapy I would have figured out some sort of solution by now.